50) Is Love Truly Enough?

I have recently been questioning one of my deepest held beliefs.  Not that I would ever doubt spirits existence, or that we are eternal souls,  no, I have no problems with that.  What I have been doubting is the almost universal belief that somehow,  love  conquers all. It seems to me that everywhere I look, either on Facebook or within spiritual internet sites, the over-riding message is that love is all you need, love will overcome anything, love is the key to happiness. I have been struggling with this the past few years.  Yes, I believe that if we all based our decisions on love, our actions on love and our thoughts on love, the world would be a better place, but unfortunately not everyone does!

Maybe it is true in the universal sense, and maybe it is also true in a soul sense, when you take many lives and average it all out, but I’m talking about this one particular physical life we are living right now.  In my experience, and that of some of my closest friends, no matter how much you love someone, they can still use you, betray you and abuse you. Recently a very dear friend of mine had been blatantly used and deeply hurt by someone she considered a life-long friend, a woman she had always tried to help and support in any way she could.  She can find no rhyme or reason for her friend’s behaviour and is extremely upset.  I feel powerless as all I can do is listen but I can’t take away her pain.  Finally, after many weeks of emotional hurt she came to the decision to end their friendship.  Whilst that may well help her to avoid any further mistreatment by her friend, she is left still reeling from recent events.  I wonder what lessons are being taught when someone who so obviously cares about another is mistreated by them.

My own personal experiences have been difficult to contend with at times.  I used to firmly believe that if you showed someone love and compassion that they would treat you well, but often through my life I have found the absolute opposite to be true.  I have puzzled over this many times and had thought that it must be a certain kind of lesson that needed learning.  I have even tried to feel grateful for the role that someone must have agreed to play to assist me in walking my spiritual path. 

Logically it makes sense to me that kindness should help people to overcome their difficulties. This is something I have pondered for such a long time and have asked my spiritual guides for some guidance on this but so far have not received any answers.

When you make the decision to help someone, in whichever way you feel they may benefit, whether it is just a gentle hug, a time to listen to them, or assistance in a more physical sense, why do they then turn around and be rude or malicious towards you?

It has happened in my life so many times that I can see a pattern of events.  What I am hoping is that one day I will have a ‘light-bulb’ moment and suddenly the reason behind this will fall into place.  My husband, Simon, tells me that he thinks I am too gentle, too soft and too forgiving.  I have so often wished I could toughen up as I think my life may be so much easier,  but the problem with that is that I wouldn’t be me anymore.

My brother  always used to laugh at my tolerance and lack of temper.  Considering the parents I had, who honestly  could have won the olympics if there had been an arguing event, you’d have thought I would have a quick temper, but this isn’t true at all. 

I still remember my Mum’s look of amazement when she saw me lose my temper for the very first time when I was fourteen.  We had been to visit Dad in hospital where he had just undergone life saving surgery and he was on full life support, so to say we were concerned and stressed was an understatement.  Mum was driving our large estate car, and I have to say she wasn’t the most confident of drivers at the best of times, but with the worry of Dad obviously on her mind, she had become distracted and taken a wrong turn.  We ended up in a very narrow dead-end street with cars parked each side.  At the very end there was little space to turn around.  It was only just after 9pm, so not what you would call very late.  Mum had to try to turn the car around which meant going backwards and forwards many many times.  She was, I admit, revving the engine a little whilst trying to navigate safely and gently between the cars, but the noise wasn’t that bad.  Well this chap came out of his house and started really shouting abuse at Mum.  Without a thought I jumped out of the car and walked right up to him and gave him such a ticking off.  I was livid that he had upset my Mum and certainly let him know it.  I told him where we’d been and what was happening to my Dad.  Much to my surprise the man became very apologetic and offered to help Mum with the reversing.  What a turn-around! 

I have always found it easier to fight other people’s battles rather than my own.  My brother used to say that I was like the worm that turned, and by that he meant you could push me so far and then that was that.  How right he was.  I have to admit that I can take an awful lot but finally there is the straw that breaks the camels back, and funnily enough it is often a very little straw!

I have had to break ties with people I have truly loved because they have behaved so badly towards me, and it comes to a point when you realise that all the love in the world cannot change their behaviour, and so very sadly and reluctantly, there really is no choice but to walk away.  Sometimes the hurt of staying in a relationship becomes so deep that your physical body cannot cope with the pain, and sometimes, and possibly even more importantly,  you have to learn to value and respect yourself, which I have found the toughest lesson to learn. 

I saw this too with my own Mum.  She tried so very hard to have a good relationship with her  Step-Mother and did everything she could to try to make it work.  When we were a young family we would all travel up to London to see my Nan. We would make this journey at least once a month. Mum and Dad would have to save hard to pay for the petrol and would always be  praying that the car wouldn’t break down because it was pretty old and extremely unreliable. At the time there were no such things as baby seats in cars and Mum would have to spend two hours sitting in the back of the car with my twin, Tina,  and I in her arms.  She laughed when she told us by the time they got there her arms couldn’t move!    As  Tina and I became older we both suffered from dreadful car sickness.  How Mum and Dad coped with this I just don’t know, it must have been a nightmare for them. I know that Mum would always keep a couple of spare outfits for us and on many occasions as soon as we arrived at Nan’s house we would have to nip upstairs and change into fresh clothes.  Thankfully our older brother Ray was not car sick, that would have been unbearable!

When  Tina and I were eleven we went to stay with Nan for the week before we started at senior school.  Mum and Dad took us up there and we spent a wonderful time with her.  We went to see shows in London and enjoyed meeting all of her friends and generally having fun.  When the week was up Mum and Dad came and collected us and strangely the mood in the car on the way home was decidedly frosty.  Sadly for us, that was the last time we ever saw our Nan.  A week or so after our holiday Mum made the decision to break all ties with her.  I was devastated.  I had adored Nan and couldn’t understand how Mum could be so cruel. 

As a young child, what I hadn’t known was that my Nan could actually drive and had a very nice car.  She would tell Mum of all the trips she took to see her various relatives all over the country and yet she had only ever made the journey to visit us once in the eighteen years since Mum had married. Nan was very comfortably off and would help all her  relatives, and yet she never once offered any help to Mum at all.  Mum told me years later that she had spent so much time broken-hearted at the way Nan treated her  that finally she couldn’t take the hurt anymore.  I know now it was not an easy decision for Mum to make and I know that she remained extremely upset about it for the rest of her life.  She had lost her Dad when she was in her early twenties, and having been told that her natural Mother had abandoned her as a baby, she had  desperately wanted to have a loving relationship with Nan.

It took me a very long time to realise that what I and others had perceived as weakness, was in fact an enormous act of strength on my Mum’s part. I can’t imagine the courage she must have mustered to be able to walk away under those circumstances, but she did, and I am sure that in the following years she certainly didn’t miss the heartache that she had endured for so much of her life. One day, when I am once again in spirit and I have my life review, I feel certain that all will become clear …… but in the meantime I must admit I really find this all so very hard to understand.

13 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. positivagirl
    Mar 16, 2013 @ 09:06:35

    I see so much here, I could say so much, I could write an essay. In spirit, all we are is love. that is all. Before my daughter died, i had experienced so much loss in my life that I found it hard to be upbeat. She came into my life, for 9 months, and I loved her so much — and then she left…. and went back home to spirit. Saying goodbye before I said hello. I realised that this was the thing about child loss grief that people do not understand. That to us, that love lives on in our hearts. Always, as it does for those who pass to spirit. On the earth plane life is far harder than in spirit, which is why we come here, for spiritual growth – and some choose harder lives than others. But i do believe that our lives our mapped out before we are born. I learned, that we never walk away from anyone, for we are always connected. Those are my beliefs anyway 😉


    • chattingwithspirit
      Mar 16, 2013 @ 22:09:08

      I agree Nikki, that our lives, or a lot of our experiences, are actually chosen for our spiritual growth. I wrote an earlier piece on this – 9) Pick’n’Mix – I think you might enjoy it! I also believe that we are all connected … just that maybe we don’t always realise it – and that synchronicity is all about those connections – for example, when you ‘accidently’ bump into a new person who may have important role to play in your life. 🙂


  2. delajus
    Oct 30, 2012 @ 02:38:26

    I can identfy with your conundrum, but I also agree with Tovarysh. And I will add this. I believe it’s our job to Love, yes, but learning it is first a matter of learning the tough lesson of perspective. I have many times believed that I showed someone nothing but Love but, upon deep reflection, I might come up with one or two times I had been mildly impatient or short with that person. If that person hasn’t reached the point where they can look past an unintentional slight, then they’re likely to hold it against you and let it fester. The next thing you know, the friendship dissolves and you wonder why. The easy answer is that it just wasn’t your fault and, if it dissolves, it was probably for the best. My personal life has been undergoing a clear-out in the last year or so. I feel Spirit working even though much of it has been rather heartbreaking. But Spirit leads me to understand perspective and the possibility that, in the other’s eyes, I may not have been blameless. That doesn’t mean I did anything wrong. It’s all about learning to forgive, learning to look past what appears to be happening to what is really happening. Often, what is really happening, when you have a string of these “losses,” is that Spirit is telling you to make way for something greater. If I were you, I would thank the Universe for the guidance It has given you in leading you beyond relationships that may not have been healthy. Be grateful, and then look out! Wondrous things will begin to happen! So glad to see you blogging again! I missed you!


    • chattingwithspirit
      Nov 12, 2012 @ 22:34:31

      Delajus … So sorry …. Somehow I missed your comment! Thank you so much for such a thoughtful reply. Yes, I agree that at times there has to be a space in your life for new adventures, experiences or people to come in, but it is such a shame that you may have to go through such torment or heartbreak to enable that space to become clear. Maybe it is all about learning, and as you said, we all look at life, other’s actions etc from our own perspectives, which can be totally at odds at times, with another persons actual intent.

      I remember once at school, being told by my English teacher, that if a certain thing happens and it is experienced by more than one person, every person will see it and re-tell it a different way. At the time I was quite young and I wondered how this could possibly be, but as I’ve grown older (and hopefully a little wiser) I can see now exactly what she meant. Maybe that in itself is yet another lesson? Goodness … so much to learn!

      I smile when I read your words, because you are a pretty canny and wise old soul yourself and yes, I am always grateful for whatever life happens to show me. I know, totally, that in the great scheme of everything there is, that it is for a purpose, and maybe if not for me, maybe for someone else to evolve and grow into their higher self through the experiences we might share.


  3. the_tovarysh_connection
    Oct 28, 2012 @ 21:11:37

    I think we can all relate to what you have written. We show love and kindness and receive the complete opposite in return. But I truly believe that our lesson is to learn to give ‘unconditional’ love to others. Loving and expecting nothing in return. Difficult, I know, in this lifetime. But truly, some people are uncomfortable with receiving love and see the strength in your giving as a weakness.
    The second part to the lesson is to know when to step away from a relationship that no longer serves you. And this is a very big lesson for someone as giving as you are. But you have no idea how your kindness has truly affected that person. All you can walk away with is the knowledge that you showed them love and kindness, despite what pain they may have caused you. For all the pain that one person caused, you will have someone else by your side to help you work through it, as you have done with your friend.
    What your mother did showed much strength. And the fact that she did it without bad-mouthing Nan to you or your siblings shows not only strength but grace. It sometimes takes many years to see the clarity in others’ actions. I know you must be very proud of your mother. Thank you for sharing such a personal story.


    • chattingwithspirit
      Oct 28, 2012 @ 21:30:54

      Thank you so much for your comment. Yes, I am very proud of my Mum …. As if often true with children, it was only in my later years that I realised the enormity of such a decision and understood her reasons. Walking away is one of the most difficult lessons I think we can learn. I have had to follow in my Mum’s footsteps where certain relationships are concerned and have to say it is never easy, but thankfully I was shown by her example that it is possible to value and respect yourself enough to reach those tough decisions.


  4. mochateaoh
    Oct 28, 2012 @ 18:25:56

    I believe it was Erich Fromm who said, “A weakness is nothing more or nothing less than a strength overdone.” (Not an exact quote but close enough) This thought has helped me to understand human behavior many times. For example, we can agree that honesty is a strength, but when overdone, honesty can be hurtful and cruel. In this light I try to understand my strengths and weaknesses. Thanks for posting this. Mocha


  5. kay gale
    Oct 28, 2012 @ 17:22:00

    Welcome back to blogland! Very thought provoking & inciteful article.
    Well done! xx


  6. ohnom
    Oct 28, 2012 @ 16:32:09

    And so it goes on, the courage of the mum being picked up by the daughter (you), few people have enough insight to truly understand!


    • chattingwithspirit
      Oct 28, 2012 @ 21:33:41

      Thank you. It is often difficult to comprehend anothers actions. As I quoted from one of my guides in a previous post: “Look kindly on your fellow man, do not judge too harshly, for where he walks you too may tread, then understand his pathway”


  7. angelroses
    Oct 28, 2012 @ 16:18:37

    Been there wore the tee shirt for many many yrs. Got thru it tho…and it made me stronger…I try not to go back to my past anymore…


    • chattingwithspirit
      Oct 28, 2012 @ 21:35:20

      So pleased that your experiences made you stronger. I think that is the ‘plan’ for us, but not always so easy when you are in the midst of emotional pain …. it is often only with hindsight that we can see where we have benefitted from our life’s lessons.


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